I suck.

So, here i am again. Its June (almost a year to the day from when i started this thing) and i have not really made any progress on my mission here. I could list off a bunch of excuses but Thad's exactly what they are. My biggest problem is i have just been really unmotivated to actually lose the weight. I'm trying to get back into the mindset that if i don't lose it now, i probably never will.

So, whats been up with me since my last posting? Well as it turns out i have been fighting a thyroid problem for some time now. I got that diagnosed and i am now on a synthetic hormone that will help to regulate thyroid function for the rest of my life. It kind of sucks that i am only 30 and I'm now on a lifetime medication, but that's the way it goes. The good part of this is that the medicine has really started to help me. For the last couple of years i felt like i really didn't sleep and as a consequence, I woke up completely unrested. I would get up in the morning, but i was so tired that i didn't want to do anything but lay on the couch till i went to work. The new pill has really helped that and I've only been taking it for a little less than a month. So, now that i don't feel like hell when i wake up, maybe i can drag my ass to the gym. I also think i suffer from sleep apnea, but i haven't gone to do the sleep study to find out yet. The other thing that hypothyroidism does is make your weight hard to manage. Now that i am on the medication, I'm told that it will be easier to lose the weight Ive been trying to lose, and hopefully i can keep it off once i lose it.

I did go to the gym today for the first time in a long time, and its kinda sad how far out of shape i am. I did a measly 30 minutes on the elliptical and was pretty worn out by it. I have dreams of getting back to the fairly intense workout that i once did, but i have to ease into it.

I think that's gonna be it for now. I don't want to start making any crazy promises that i wont be able to keep, save one. This is a fairly cathartic blog for me to write, so i will be posting more. Thanks again to everyone for their support.